The Starting Point: True Body Intelligence
People, animals, living things, the earth and source all move each other into a place in time and space where they should be, right here, right now.
It’s all there, it’s a matter of tapping in to the constant messages, trusting everything, being open, being healed or being in the healing process.
I didn’t know what lived deep inside the tissues, what pictures remained with me and “haunted me” on a daily basis, I wasn’t open to learning, I just wanted to keep moving, suppressing and at the same time.. hurting.
Until the message came through loud and clear, not out of ego, not out of trying to outmatch the vibration. Just one from love.
That’s when True Body Intelligence was introduced to me, and I allowed it to seep into my body, brain and nervous system. I began this trust, not only with the practitioner, but of source. Allowing things to happen on a natural basis. Educating myself as the trauma came oozing out of my body and out into words, emotion and relief.
Words like higher vibration, energy body, “and so it is” stayed with me and hung on for dear life until I was ready to understand the new messages that were coming in. But I had to make room. And it took years until the hard work, which included layers of my own self help of Reiki, understanding crystal energy, psychotherapy and the power of meditation, was safe for me to write my own new story.
My old story was one of similar pain and trauma that we all have inside us, whether consciously or subconsciously. Mine was growing up with parents who suffered from mental illness along with me as a child not understanding fully the effects of my upbringing. Then my father succumbing to the effects of depression, dying from suicide and my mother suffering years from paranoia and dementia with a very poor quality of life.
I was sad, angry, lost, but those emotions didn’t come out in those ways effectively. I yearned to get “better”, so the best way I knew was to escape some more! That was the path, that was my journey. I’ve accomplished things that I am very proud of as a result of the overcompensating coping mechanism. I yearned for quests such as Ironman, being the best Yoga Instructor out there, Louis Vuitton bags and lots of ego. I was learning lessons, big lessons. There are no regrets from any of this.
Yet there was still something so greatly wrong. I was not getting “better”, I was not healing, I was not happy.
My new story is one of trusting everything, including my intuition and gut feeling. The yearning to understand this life journey more. To understand all the emotions and all the vibrations. Accepting it all.. and so it is. To pass on my gifts and learnings to others, perhaps planting seeds or perhaps growing beautiful trees.
It all started to unravel the day I was in tremendous stress, conflict and unhappiness. All in a yoga studio. For a very brief time. For a very specific reason.
Thank you Gabby, True Body Intelligence, source and all. Love and light. love and light, love and light.